Locked Down, Not Bogged Down

Let me be honest. I never got tired of lockdown honestly. I have this thing, once I decide to 'like' something or decide to 'sustain' something- nobody can pull me down. So, with two senior citizens and a small baby at home, there was no way I would desperately feel like 'going out'. No.

What troubles me is the fatigue. The pressure to work from home, at home and clean up the mess which automatically gets generated every half and hour by adults of the family. About Abby, I am loving every moment I spend with him. With his curiosity and amazing grasping power, he changes my mood in plain 2 minutes (unless he is resisting sleep, which is a topic for a separate blog!)

I know, I have previously blogged about how busy and tiring my day is (to me) which ruins my peace of mind and happiness. However, there are tiny moments of happiness and love I go through every day. Today is the day to seize them and write about them, so after ten years when I read about the 'Lockdown', I do not remember 'only' the painful time and fatigue here.

• I love making Abby eat different food and develop his taste buds! Lemon, Oranges, Neem Juice and what not. He loves Bananas, Apples, Mangoes, Kiwis, Oats, Rotis, Halwas and oh god, almost everything. He seems to have a sweet tooth but our halwas and laddus do not have sugar- Go figure! Ah, Oats are so bland that only both of us can have it and enjoy it as well. (I am the one with those taste buds!) So, it is an exciting ride till he starts finding all the junk in the world.
• I love it when I take bath once in a day or twice if I am lucky. Serious! Even if I am always rushing- the feeling of warm water touching my tired muscles --I have never experienced those feelings before. Looks like my body is asking for rest and when it does not get it, it sort of enjoys such little relaxing minutes. 
• I love talking to my Singapore friend A who is also my colleague. We chat an entire day to sustain our everyday assignments which are basically nothing but stuff in the pressure cooker- you never know when you would need a whistle! 
• I love reading books to Abby, as much as I want to do it for a longer period of time. I understand, possibly this is the maximum chunk I can bargain from life.
• I love dancing with him, he though just uses his hands and sometimes try to jump holding to the railings of his cot but believe me, if this fatigue was not there- I would have gone all out of dancing and be happy about the 'work out'!
• I have these dreams of setting up my own home, okay rooms if not home. So when we got this sofa cum bed in January 2020 four our side of the flat, I wanted to buy furnishing of my choice. While I did not do it then thanks to my procrastination and now it is impossible to order anything- I have to make do with a slide for Abby, clothes drying up on racks and toys every where. Silver lining? We finally opened our wine glasses to drink coffee, used some cute cushions we already had! We also finally made our extra dead kitchen alive, to use it as a pantry to make Maggie, coffee and tea! 
• My husband is going to work from home for six months and hence, I am already dreaming about that slim study table I saw in one of the shops in Fort a few months back. I am actually in love with that piece of Mango Wood furniture! (Who can afford teak now?)
• Chitchatting with my Kaka and Kaki from US, still as exciting as ever. As soothing as ever. Never gets tiring- in fact it is warmer than ever! 
• I have started looking forward to our weekly big family hang outs. They are more interactive for me than before. One silver lining Covid-19 could bring!

I am sure there would be many more to come, looking at the ever extended lock down we are observing. Tell me one thing, even if economists warn us of poverty and unemployment- would you have a heart to go out if you have a baby at home?

I am not ready. Not ready at all.

I will live like this forever, if it keeps my baby healthy. Happily so.